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Introduction : Interior freedom rests upon the principle of non-resistance
to all the things which seem evil or painful to our natural love
of self. But non-resistance alone can accomplish nothing good unless,
behind it, there is a strong love for righteousness and truth. By
refusing to resist the ill will of others, or the stress of circumstances,
for the sake of greater usefulness and a clearer point of view,
we deepen our conviction of righteousness as the fundamental law
of fife, and broaden our horizon so as to appreciate varying and
opposite points of view.
The only non-resistance that brings this power is the kind which
yields mere personal and selfish considerations for the sake of
principles. Selfish and weak yielding must always do harm. Unselfish
yielding, on the other hand, strengthens the will and increases
strength of purpose as the petty obstacles of mere self-love are
removed. Concentration alone cannot long remain wholesome, for it
needs the light of growing self-knowledge to prevent its becoming
self-centred. Yielding alone is of no avail, for in itself it has
no constructive power. But if we try to look at ourselves as we
really are, we shall find great strength in yielding where only
our small and private interests are concerned, and concentrating
upon living the broad principles of righteousness which must directly
or indirectly affect all those with whom we come into contact.
I AM so tired I must give up work," said a young woman with
a very strained and tearful face; and it seemed to her a desperate
state, for she was dependent upon work for her bread and butter.
If she gave up work she gave up bread and butter, and that meant
starvation. When she was asked why she did not keep at work and
learn to do it without getting so tired, that seemed to her absurd,
and she would have laughed if laughing had been possible.
"I tell you the work has tired me so that I cannot stand it,
and you ask me to go back and get rest out of it when I am ready
to die of fatigue. Why don't you ask me to burn myself, on a piece
of ice, or freeze myself with a red-hot poker?"
"But," the answer was, "it is not the work that
tires you at all, it is the way you do it;" and, after a little
soothing talk which quieted the overexcited nerves, she began to
feel a dawning intelligence, which showed her that, after all, there
might be life in the work which she had come to look upon as nothing
but slow and painful death. She came to understand that she might
do her work as if she were working very lazily, going from one thing
to another with a feeling as near to entire indifference as she
could cultivate, and, at the same time, do it well. She was shown
by illustrations how she might walk across the room and take a book
off the table as if her life depended upon it, racing and pushing
over the floor, grabbing the book and clutching it until she got
back to her seat, or, how she might move with exaggerated laziness
take the book up loosely, and drag herself back again. This illustration
represents two extremes, and one, in itself, is as bad as the other;
but, when the habit has been one of unnecessary strain and effort,
the lazy way, practised for a time, will not only be very restful,
but will eventually lead to movement which is quick as well.
To take another example, you may write holding the pen with much
more force than is needful, tightening your throat and tongue at
the same time, or you may drag your pen along the paper and relieve
the tendency to tension in your throat and tongue by opening your
mouth slightly and letting your jaw hang loosely. These again are
two extremes, but, if the habit has been one of tension, a persistent
practice of the extreme of looseness will lead to a quiet mode of
writing in which ten pages can be finished with the effort it formerly
took to write one.
Sometimes the habit of needless strain has taken such a strong
hold that the very effort to work quietly seems so unnatural as
to cause much nervous suffering. To turn the corner from a bad habit
into a true and wholesome one is often very painful, but, the first
pain worked through, the right habit grows more and more easy, until
finally the better way carries us along and we take it involuntarily.
For the young woman who felt she had come to the end of her powers,
it was work or die; therefore, when she had become rested enough
to see and understand at all, she welcomed the idea that it was
not her work that tired her, but the way in which she did it, and
she listened eagerly to the directions that should teach her to
do it with less fatigue, and, as an experiment, offered to go back
and try the "lazy way" for a week. At the end of a week
she reported that the "lazy way" had rested her remarkably,
but she did not do her work so well. Then she had to learn that
she could keep more quietly and steadily concentrated upon her work,
doing it accurately and well, without in the least interfering with
the "lazy way." Indeed, the better concentrated we are,
the more easily and restfully we can work, for concentration does
not mean straining every nerve and muscle toward our work,--it means
_dropping everything that interferes,_ and strained nerves and muscles
constitute a very bondage of interference.
The young woman went back to her work for another week's experiment,
and this time returned with a smiling face, better color, and a
new and more quiet life in her eyes. She had made the "lazy
way" work, and found a better power of concentration at the
same time. She knew that it was only a beginning, but she felt secure
now in the certain knowledge that it was not her work that had been
killing her, but the way in which she had done it; and she felt
confident of her power to do it restfully and, at the same time,
better than before. Moreover, in addition to practising the new
way of working, she planned to get regular exercise in the open
air, even if it had to come in the evening, and to eat only nourishing
food. She has been at work now for several years, and, at last accounts,
was still busy, with no temptation to stop because of overfatigue.
If any reader is conscious of suffering now from the strain of
his work and would like to get relief, the first thing to do is
to notice that it is less the work that tires him than his way of
doing it, and the attitude of his mind toward it. Beginning with
that conviction, there comes at first an interest in the process
of dropping strain and then a new interest in the work itself, and
a healthy concentration in doing the merest drudgery as well as
it can be done, makes the drudgery attractive and relieves one from
the oppressive fatigue of uninteresting monotony.
If you have to move your whole body in your daily work, the first
care should be to move the feet and legs heavily. Feel as if each
foot weighed a ton, and each hand also; and while you work take
long, quiet breaths,--breaths such as you see a man taking when
he is very quietly and soundly sleeping.
If the work is sedentary, it is a help before starting in the morning
to drop your head forward very loosely, slowly and heavily, and
raise it very slowly, then take a long, quiet breath. Repeat this
several times until you begin to feel a sense of weight in your
head. If there is not time in the morning, do it at night and recall
the feeling while you are dressing or while you are going to work,
and then, during your work, stop occasionally just to feel your
head heavy and then go on. Very soon you become sensitive to the
tension in the back of your neck and drop it without stopping work
at all.
Long, quiet breaths while you work are always helpful. If you are
working in bad air, and cannot change the air, it is better to try
to have the breaths only quiet and gentle, and take long, full breaths
whenever you are out-of-doors and before going to sleep at night.
Of course, a strained way of working is only one cause of nervous
fatigue; there are others, and even more important ones, that need
to be understood in order that we may be freed from the bondage
of nervous strain which keeps so many of us from our best use and
happiness.
Many people are in bondage because of doing wrong, but many more
because of doing right in the wrong way. Real freedom is only found
through obedience to law, and when, because of daily strain, a man
finds himself getting overtired and irritable, the temptation is
to think it easier to go on working in the wrong way than to make
the effort to learn how to work in the right way. At first the effort
seems only to result in extra strain, but, if persisted in quietly,
it soon becomes apparent that it is leading to less and less strain,
and finally to restful work.
There are laws for rest, laws for work, and laws for play, which,
if we find and follow them, lead us to quiet, useful lines of life,
which would be impossible without them. They are the laws of our
own being, and should carry us as naturally as the instincts of
the animals carry them, and so enable us to do right in the right
way, and make us so sure of the manner in which we do our work that
we can give all our attention to the work itself; and when we have
the right habit of working, the work itself must necessarily gain,
because we can put the best of ourselves into it.
It is helpful to think of the instincts of the beasts, how true
and orderly they are, on their own plane, and how they are only
perverted when the animals have come under the influence of man.
Imagine Baloo, the bear in Mr. Kipling's "Jungle Book,"
being asked how he managed to keep so well and rested. He would
look a little surprised and say: "Why, I follow the laws of
my being. How could I do differently?" Now that is just the
difference between man and beast. Man can do differently. And man
has done differently now for so many generations that not one in
ten thousand really recognizes what the laws of his being are, except
in ways so gross that it seems as if we had sunken to the necessity
of being guided by a crowbar, instead of steadily following the
delicate instinct which is ours by right, and so voluntarily accepting
the guidance of the Power who made us, which is the only possible
way to freedom.
Of course the laws of a man's being are infinitely above the laws
of a beast's. The laws of a man's being are spiritual, and the animal
in man is meant to be the servant of his soul. Man's true guiding
instincts are in his soul,--he can obey them or not, as he chooses;
but the beast's instincts are in his body, and he has no choice
but to obey. Man can, so to speak, get up and look down on himself.
He can be his own father and his own mother. From his true instinct
he can say to himself, "you must do this" or "You
must not do that." He can see and understand his tendency to
disobedience, and _he can force himself to obey._ Man can see the
good and wholesome animal instincts in himself that lead to lasting
health and strength, and he can make them all the good servants
of his soul. He can see the tendency to overindulgence, and how
it leads to disease and to evil, and he can refuse to permit that
wrong tendency to rule him.
Every man has his own power of distinguishing between right and
wrong, and his own power of choosing which way he shall follow.
He is left free to choose God's way or to choose his own. Through
past and present perversions, of natural habit he has lost the delicate
power of distinguishing the normal from the abnormal, and needs
to be educated back to it. The benefit of this education is an intelligent
consciousness of the laws of life, which not only adds to his own
strength of mind and body, but increases immeasurably his power
of use to others. Many customs of to-day fix and perpetuate abnormal
habits to such an extent that, combined with our own selfish inheritances
and personal perversions, they dim the light of our minds so that
many of us are working all the time in a fog, more or less dense,
of ignorance and bondage. When a man chooses the right and refuses
the wrong, in so far as he sees it, he becomes wise from within
and from without, his power for distinguishing gradually improves,
the fog lifts, and he finds within himself a sure and delicate instinct
which was formerly atrophied for want of use.
The first thing to understand without the shadow of a doubt, is
that, man is not in freedom when he is following his own selfish
instincts. He is only in the appearance of freedom, and the appearance
of freedom, without the reality, leads invariably to the worst bondage.
A man who loves drink feels that he is free if he can drink as much
as he wants, but that leads to degradation and delirium tremens.
A man who has an inherited tendency toward the disobedience of any
law feels that he is free if he has the opportunity to disobey it
whenever he wants to. But whatever the law may be, the results have
only to be carried to their logical conclusion to make clear the
bondage to which the disobedience leads. All this disobedience to
law leads to an inevitable, inflexible, unsurmountable limit in
the end, whereas steady effort toward obedience to law is unlimited
in its development of strength and power for use to others. Man
must understand his selfish tendencies in order to subdue and control
them, until they become subject to his own unselfish tendencies,
which are the spiritual laws within him. Thus he gradually becomes
free,--soul and body,--with no desire to disobey, and with steadily
increasing joy in his work and life. So much for the bondage of
doing wrong, and the freedom of doing right, which it seems necessary
to touch upon, in order to show clearly the bondage of doing right
in the wrong way, and the freedom of doing right in the right way.
It is right to work for our daily bread, and for the sake of use
to others, in whatever form it may present itself. The wrong way
of doing it makes unnecessary strain, overfatigue and illness. The
right way of working gives, as we have said before, new power and
joy in the work; it often turns even drudgery into pleasure, for
there is a special delight in learning to apply one's self in a
true spirit to "drudgery." The process of learning such
true application of one's powers often reveals new possibilities
in work.
It is right for most people to sleep eight hours every night. The
wrong way of doing it is to go to sleep all doubled up, and to continue
to work all night in our sleep, instead of giving up and resting
entirely. The right way gives us the fullest possible amount of
rest and refreshment.
It is right to take our three meals a day, and all the nourishing
food we need. The wrong way of doing it, is to eat very fast, without
chewing our food carefully, and to give our stomachs no restful
opportunity of preparation to receive its food, or to take good
care of it after it is received. The right way gives us the opportunity
to assimilate the food entirely, so that every bit of fuel we put
into our bodies is burnt to some good purpose, and makes us more
truly ready to receive more.
It is right to play and amuse ourselves for rest and recreation.
We play in the wrong way when we use ourselves up in the strain
of playing, in the anxiety lest we should not win in a game, or
when we play in bad air. When we play in the right way, there is
no strain, no anxiety, only good fun and refreshment and rest.
We might go through the narrative of an average life in showing
briefly the wonderful difference between doing right in the right
way, and doing right in the wrong way. It is not too much to say
that the difference in tendency is as great as that between life
and death.
It is one thing to read about orderly living and to acknowledge
that the ways described are good and true, and quite another to
have one's eyes opened and to act from the new knowledge, day by
day, until a normal mode of life is firmly established. It requires
quiet, steady force of will to get one's self out of bad, and well
established in good habits. After the first interest and relief
there often has to be steady plodding before the new way becomes
easy; but if we do not allow ourselves to get discouraged, we are
sure to gain our end, for we are opening ourselves to the influence
of the true laws within us, and in finding and obeying these we
are approaching the only possible Freedom of Life.
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